Broken

Mari & I broke up. Well, I broke up with her. I was just tired of all her crap, she has always and will always take me for granted. I have a massive headache and I don't want to go into it right now.

If ya want to know more, just ask. :(

controversy

I drank a bit too much yesterday. Since becoming Vegan, my alcohol tolerance has decreased significantly. When before, 6 decent sized vodka tonics would get me on the floor, now it takes only 3. I drank 4.5 yesterday. The .5 was from before going out, our friend Robert mixed some Diet 7Up with a vodka shot.

I was pretty drunk yesterday.

We club hopped, started at Limelight, then went to The Saint, then ended up at the Pegasus, this really seedy gay club downtown. After the night was over, we went and got McDonalds. I ate just some fries, which I found out later, much to my horror, that those fuckers are NOT Vegan friendly. Blah. Duped again! Good thing I go to McDonalds probably, oh, never.

Except when I'm drunk, apparently.

Tomorrow I work 8:30am-6pm. I graciously volunteered for an hour of overtime. I say graciously because I NEVER do, for various reasons. I get slammed with calls most of the time on my regular shift and if I did anymore time here, I might go insane. So anyway, I volunteered like a dumbass. Meh, I felt bad for them because they're understaffed and whiny as all shit. I get atleast 3 new emails in my inbox everyday from various supervisors just beggggging for people to do overtime. So I threw them a bone and gave away an extra hour of my life.

PLUS! Plus...I see we have atleast 2-3 managers here at any given moment, if not more during peak hours, and I see not one of them busting their ass on the phone. My manager, for instance, takes about 2 hours worth of calls, every once in a while. Meanwhile, he takes 2 hour lunches and just sits at his desk, monitoring OTHER PEOPLE'S calls. I mean, how fair is that? I know they're managers and have moved up from us lowly rep's, but if we need more people on the phones, they should get their asses busy! We need man power, no matter WHO it is.

But anyway...lunch is over. Gotta get back to work. :grumble grumble:

Juke Joint Jezebel

It's...8:14 am and I'm sitting at work, wasting my fucking life away. Blah. Tonight we leave for Dallas, after sushi at Kona of course. Gotta get that little extra stop in. Lol. I'm PMSing something horrible and I gained a mothereffing pound. I weighed in YESTERDAY at 167, and today...between 168-169. FUCK YOU SCAAAAALLLEEEE. It's bloating from my monthly bill, which is going to start anyday now. I know that for a fact because for the past 3 days I've gotten under my calorie limit and worked out everyday. So...that's the only explanation.

I hate weight fluctuation.

I got up around 6am this morning to work out. Mari was already up, since 5am. She had to take the boys to her parents house, they're keeping them for the weekend. I'm going to miss my little Beetlejuice and Boogie. :\

All I've had today is a 16 oz glass of Silk Soy Milk and a cup of black ass coffee. Blegh.

Uh oh time to change the song on the Ipod. Bye-bye KMFDM, hellloooo Dismantled. Wait...no...let's try some Nitzer Ebb. Gotta get in some Join in the Chant before work. It keeps me awake.

Muscle and Hate!

Can you tell I'm a bit loopy? What with not eating anything, the hormones from my monthly and the anxiety about Dallas, I'm just a bit crazy this morning. I'll calm down, I swear.

On Slow Days & Rocky Points

Last night I went out with Sara and her boyfriend. It was A BLAST! Loved it. I wish I saw Sara more...we get along so great. It's like we just started where we left off before she left for Austin. We've always had this crazy connection and when we drink, it just intensifies lol. We laugh, we dance, we talk about weight and girl shit. It's fabulous. So last night, I was able to drink 3 vodka tonics without throwing up. Seems my body is adapting to drinking as a Vegan. Good thing, too, because Mari & I are going to Dallas for a hair show next Saturday. And I wanted to drink a bit.

Weighed myself this morning...168 lbs. That's 18 lbs down in almost 7 weeks. I feel good about the weight loss, I do, but I kind of wanted to be 165 by Dallas. But I'm happy with what I've done. Can't push it too hard, ya know? I've been doing pretty decent counting cals. I try to eat 1400-1600 calories a day. I work out about 5-6 times a week, with the exception of this week, I only did 4 days. This week was a super tired week, emotionally and physically. But with the working out and cal counting, I probably only net about 1200-1400 calories a day. On the days I don't work out, I have to skip a meal somewhere to keep the numbers down. But this is all Vegan food, mind you. So it's never really bad for you, unless you count the numerous pb&j sammiches I eat. Other than that, I can't really eat any junk.

Ummm....work is hella slow, which is great because yet again, I only got about 5 hours of sleep last night. That's a total of...let's see...10 hours of sleep in a 48 hour period? Nice. I really gotta work on that, eh?

Ummmm.....what else....uhhhggggh Maribel & I have hit a rocky point a bit. Her going out, staying out until 3 or 4 in the morning has really put a strain on things. This last week she did that 3 times. Ridiculous. So...we're working out things. I don't forsee this being a big hurdle but still, a bump.

Oh and I have to remind myself to call my mom. Haven't talked to her in like a week. She'd be proud of all the cooking I've been doing. Vegan green bean casserole, vegan mac n cheese, garlic broccoli penne...only about a year ago I could barely boil water.

on viruses and lost ellbees

My computer at work is being really lame. Seriously. It has some sort of adware virus bullshit that keeps popping up every like two minutes. From the looks of it, and from what the IT guy said, it's relatively harmless. It just tries to trick you into buying some spyware by pretending there are like a million super serious viruses on the computer. When you go to block one, it pops up "In order to block this attack, you must now purchase our software!" Lol. But what this little computer worm doesn't know is that my work computer already comes with great spyware. And if these so called "serious attacks" even exist, my spyware would pop up. But it hasn't. Not once. So I just have to ride it out until the IT doods can take care of it. Apparently it's being a stubborn little twit by not leaving. Whatever.

My laptop at home has a bunch of useless viruses on it that don't do jack shit but be annoying. I get them from Limewire when I download music for my ipod. Limewire kind of sucks in the virus department. You have to be a frequent user to know what files are viruses or not. They're always pretty much labeled the same.

Anyway-lost 11 lbs so far. My first month of Veganism was quite successful in the weight loss department, if I may say so myself. I just started my second month of Veganism yesterday. I hope to reach 20 lbs lost by June 23rd, the end of the second month. That's only 9 more ellbees...I can do that in 4 weeks, huh? I think so.

Oh and I want to learn how to make Miso Soup. Apparently it's hella good for you. ;)

Lingerer

Lost 7 lbs. Been working out. Still a Vegan, for 3+ weeks. Work is lame, as always. Not too much else to update on. My life is boring but fulfilling.

Last night I went out to Industry and got a hangover for the first time in forever. I don't ever get hangovers, especially when I just drink vodka. I only had 3 vodka tonics. I'm becoming a lightweight heh.

I need to get out more :(

trash tv

Tonight's going to be a lame ass night. Mari has some fashion show she is doing hair at somewhere downtown, doesn't know when it's over, and I'm going to be stuck at home, doing nothing. I wanted to go out yesterday but as always, we ended up just sitting at home, smoking and watching trash tv. I got home late from visiting my mom and by then, Maribel was already asleep. Robert came over shortly thereafter and we just sat around like losers. Blah.

I want to go out sometime soon.

Today is Day 11 of Vegan life. I feel great. I feel energized when I shouldn't be. Like when I only get 4 hours of sleep, I still have weirdly high amounts of energy. Yeah, I get tired still throughout the day, I'm not superhuman, but as a whole, the energy level has increased. I also think I've lost a bit of weight. Not sure though, because it seems to not be enough to fit into my 12's but enough to notice slightly. It's only day 11 though and I haven't been exercising besides walking the dogs.

Anyway-why am I rambling? I dunno. I might post again tonight if I get hella fucking bored. I might be stoned too, who knows.

Blah.